the autumn leaves fall down to the Mother Earth
it's been decades and your ghost never left this town
it became the blurry figures
in front of the bus stations
where we used to talk before work
at the ice cream stall down the busy road
after the noon to calm my anxiety
on the ugly yellow cab
where you squeezed my hand three times
and i would say that i love you too
with kisses on the palm of your hand
with my faded-green umbrella against the rain
with home-cooked meals after the fight
with the home i used to build just for us
i can never count how many summers passed
and all i did just thinking how come it all ends
without any notification on my phone
without an apology letter sent to my mail
even without my key that i spared to you
where it all went away?
i walk down to the park you loved
and see how my life passed in the flash of my eyes
i know i wasted half of my life loving that damn hard
now i whisper to the windy air
hoping that this winter won't feel so lonely
and the spring brings all my hopes up
i hope the summers ahead
it won't be wasted
like all those silly years
i spent on loving you
// the one summer i hope it all ends
21.09.23; 11.40pm
