bacain blog post yang lama-lama terus nemu notes dari ultah tahun lalu;

baru sadar kalo akhir-akhir kata yang selalu keluar itu: "SAABAAAARRRR" 

:)

Oh, another notes from me....

Udah jarang banget nulis :(

(berasa sedih tapi emang gaada ide)

About being 25 and life goes on...

So.. this is the "Quarter Life Crisis" age. 

Very much feel blessed for being alive until now. Blessed for closest friends, for family, for this life. I know that lately it's not too good—the stress, the sickness, the homesick, the loneliness. But most of all this life has been good for me. This life treats me well, and for all the good things that came into my life, I'm so so so grateful. 

Setahun ke belakang ini, rasanya lagi naik-turun. Mood lagi ngga bagus-bagusnya, mulai tahun 2023 badan gampang sakitnya lagi rewel, stressing out of all the things, the lonelines... 2022 treated me good. But 4,5 months into 2023 is like... roller coaster. But, as the title said, life goes on. Udah ngga pengen lagi merasa 'left out', ngga mau lagi merasa mencintai diri sendiri dan sekeliling itu sulit, lebih pengen banyak bersyukur. Emang susah, apalagi kalo capek ya. Tapi ngga apa, one step at a time.

Apalagi dapet kado dari temen-temen, jadi ngerasa... it's ok. 

They're being so thoughtful and it's ok. 

Zay gave me sandals and journaling kits: the way she knew and remembered it. Dan sendal sih! Agak unexpected karena awal tahun ini aku emang butuh, tapi sekarang bingung jarang keluar hahaha. 

Ai & Fil just gave me a Junior Jewels Shirt... hahahaha. I know sometimes I'm crazy about Taylor Swift. This is the second Taylor Swift related gift that I got. Merasa bersyukur ada orang-orang yang oke dengan fangirling-ku. Kebanyakan orang cuma ngeremehin, dia lucky lah kulit putih, ngga bisa nyanyi bagus kayak Ariana atau Demi yang suka hit high notes, serial dater, mesti nulis tentang mantannya (WHICH ALL SINGERS DO WTF?!), dst. Sebel sih. And knowing that there are people who understands... blessed.

Apalagi ya? Udah D+15 but life is so crazy right now. But as the title said... again... life goes on. So I'll make the best out of it for a year ahead. Luv.