wishes, wished.

i wish i was old enough to understand how the world goes. how you should pressed your angers and never felt anything afterwards. how you wished for love instead happiness. how you saw the time goes by and left you there, in the back of people's mind. because you thought that the world didn't need to see your sorrows, and it left you died inside. buried in the dark, all alone. 

i wish i was wise enough to leave people with explanations rather than walked away in silence. in time, they're all gone without saying any goodbye. and it left you with questions, mostly about how worthless you were that they dumped you with feelings undefined. it left you questioning, and made you learnt that no answer is an answer too. 

i wish i was sharp enough to notice. about hands that would've saved me. about love that might be last forever. about people that might stay for a longer time. and now that the time's up, maybe i should understand how to let people go and live a life without regretting anymore. 

// oh how i wish

27.05.24; 12.33am